17 1 / 2013
Failure
One of the best lessons Peace Corps teaches you is how to deal with failure. Whether it be that girl you’ve been mentoring all year tells you she’s pregnant, or that ARV defaulter patient dies of TB, or a man you’ve convinced to circumcise tests positive for HIV, all of these situations teach you that no matter how hard you try, you will fail. Or more importantly, you can’t save every(any)one .
All of these things have happened to me in the last week and I’m kind of a mess about it. Most of all I’m angry with myself, for not trying harder, but also for thinking I could make any difference in the first place.
And that’s how the Peace Corps turned me into a terrible person who always suspects the worst in people, and the world. The End.