23 1 / 2013
I have been studying for the MCAT a lot lately. I am taking it in May, and really studying hard for it. I have 16 weeks left, so I should be in reasonable shape by that time, and I have a good schedule laid out, so I feel good about that.
The thing is that in the meantime, studying for the MCAT makes me feel incredibly dumb. It’s been 4 years since I’ve taken these classes, which I didn’t think would be a big deal but it really is. I am on the struggle bus when it comes to this stuff. I feel stupid all the time, and as a result I’m pretty cranky lately.
The good thing about this is that I live in Botswana, where pretty much the work day is over by 11am (at least in my clinic). Along with my freedom as a Peace Corps Volunteer, I can take the afternoons to study if I want. Which I will do for the next 16 weeks.
Someone asked me recently what my goals were, and I said “do really well on the MCAT in May, and lose 7 kg by August”. She said, “Oh, I meant work-goals”. Oops. The longer I stay here, the more I realize you can’t really help anyone but yourself. Every project (except circumcision) that I have started has failed. Another volunteer recently said, “I’m sick at failing my Peace Corps service”. Yeah that’s pretty much it. So I’m just going to take these next 9 months to prepare for my life in America, learn as much as I can about this corner of Africa, and attain some personal goals for myself.